That moment when you realize you had a typo in your self-promotional Christmas card that you sent to a hundred of your friends, family, and colleagues...


I'm pretty embarrassed, humiliated, and upset about my mistake. To put it in perspective, it's like a baker using salt instead of sugar, or a carpenter installing the hinges backwards on a door, or a dog walker that returns a dog to the wrong house. It's bad.

I obviously didn't check my spellcheck twice.

I've read that one of the things you should do after you make a mistake is first, apologize (sorry mom!), then find a way to fix it. Well, all of my cards are out in the mail and even *international* so there's no redacting the typo. I'm not going to send a second postcard to point out my mistake. The best thing I can do is own up to it, and I'm choosing to do that and write a little about what I've learned.

A colleague of mine once gave me some advice about mistakes: allow yourself to feel bad about it for five minutes, then move on. Let me tell you, I spent my entire thirty-minute commute this morning feeling bad about it and trying to find ways and imagining scenarios in my head to make up for my blunder. I just feel so down about it. It honestly sucks.

The thing about me is that I'm not perfect. I make mistakes. Everyone does. I'm human and I am a doofus. It's not an excuse though.

But the other thing is that I'm trying. I'm putting myself out there - trying to get a side-hustle going. I mean, I'm unmarried, without children and pets, I am not a homeowner - I can't send out holiday cards like my friends with photos of their beautiful families or letters telling about my yearly accomplishments. I can't do that. 

I do have something though. What I have is not material: I am talented. I am an artist. I have my own website with a blog that I try to write in about all sorts of topics. I try to be funny. I try to DIY when I cannot buy. I try to be a good partner and friend. I try to be present in my own life. I try to recycle all of my wine bottles. I'm trying to be a better graphic designer. I have great friends who point out my mistakes not to be unkind, but to help me learn and grow.

With all of this trying that I do, it's not surprising that I fail. I fail often. This is probably not the last time that I do fail. The thing that makes me unique is that when I fail, I'm not afraid to admit that I messed up and I'm going to keep moving forward. 

I'm apologizing for being a dum-dum that didn't use spellcheck and was in such a hurry to get my cards out in time that I basically shot myself in the foot. But I sure as hell am not apologizing for putting myself out there and attempting to be a boss bitch.

So, here's to starting the new year making mistakes, learning from them, and prospering.

Why I Champion The Boy Scouts Expansion

This week, The Boy Scouts of America announced that they are expanding their program to include girls. And this includes a Scouting program for older girls that will enable them to advance and earn the highest rank of Eagle Scout. 

Now, a lot of people think this is a controversial move - but before you start arguing about it, let me share my story and my personal experience with scouting.

I remember growing up and being jealous of my brother when he was going high adventure camping - he got to do so many cool things!

I remember I was upset when I had my Boy Scout knife taken away at girl scout camp - while my brother at the same age was allowed to carry and use his. I remember doing crafts and singing songs at our camp, while my brother was scaling a high ropes course.

I remember selling cookies and then having to pay out of pocket for a week at camp, while my brother used his popcorn selling money (which was deposited into a personal account) to be able to go to camp on the cheap.

The comparisons were large in the differences between our two experiences as young scouts. I dropped out of Girl Scouts at age thirteen because I was frustrated with being unable to do so many things within my Girl Scout Troop. I eventually joined (and took leadership positions in) Venture Scouts and an Explorer Post, which are co-ed high-adventure camping groups, but it's a shame that I had to wait until I was fourteen to join.

This is a longtime coming, and the expansion of the BSA to include girls is so amazing. I'm so excited! Now girls can work towards earning their Eagle Award, which can lead to scholarships and other opportunities. Comparibly, the Girl Scouts has a Gold Award, but it does not hold the same high esteem as the BSA counterpart, unfortunately. 

Here's a note from my Dad I received this week, an Eagle Scout, and longtime leader of the Boy Scouts: "I feel bad for you Jenna, as you would be a fine Eagle Scout like your brother. I guess the organization and I did not move fast enough to make this happen."

And he's right, I would have made a fine Eagle Scout, but never had the opportunity.

In Germany, they just have a group called "Scouts" and ANYONE of any gender and age can join - isn't that a wonderful idea?