Tonight, I was just sitting in my living room reading, and I kept hearing this chirp at the window. I kind of shrugged it off, but It ended up getting pesky, so I went to close the window, and a GRASSHOPPER flew at the screen. I saw him and flicked the screen to bump him away (so he wouldn't get trapped) and closed the window.
Well I heard a chirp again, and looked, and he was still there! Stubborn thing! I opened the window and flicked once more, but he leapt to the actual pane and was just chilling out.
I'm a believer in animal symbolism (I'll tell you about my run-ins with three deer in a later post) and being that this grasshopper was not leaving me alone tonight. Curious, I looked up Grasshopper symbolism. I found this information on the subject:
To be perfectly honest with you, I have been kind of having a rough month. Some unexpected financial emergencies have had me canceling fun outings with friends and reevaluating my budget. It's looking like ramen, canned chicken, and staying at home watching VHS tapes for the next month. But I'm okay with that.
About 6 years ago, I was strangely in the same position. I was just finishing up college and had spent my entire bank account on my senior show, about to move back in with my parents, because, alas, I was cursed with graduating during a recession.
Although, I feel like this time, it's not my parents who are saving me from this crisis. It's not a man rescuing me out of my debt. It's me. I am. I'M A GROWN ASS WOMAN. I'm making things happen, I'm choosing not to be a victim, and I'm not wallowing. I'm the hero in my own story.
I've recently been understanding that everything happens for a reason. Even the bad things. Everything leads to more possibilities and adventures and growth, and I'm okay with feeling it.
Going back to the Grasshopper, it's all about taking a LEAP. Going forward. Making a change that kind of scares you. Letting your intuition guide you. And I'm not saying it's easy. I am SO ANXIOUS about this, but anxiety is a tricky mental illness. It makes you think you aren't good enough and that things are WAY TOO CHALLENGING and makes you nervous and doubt yourself. But I'm ignoring that anxiety because the chirp of the grasshopper is pushing me FORWARD.
RELATED NOTE: There's a Black Moon tomorrow. (Basically the second New Moon in September. The last one was...on my birthday!) Perfect for setting intentions and manifesting something great!